one single word? many different meanings.
Tired
tired of pleasing everyone but myself
tired of thinking how everyone thinks of me
tired of putting all the blame on myself
tired of expecting so much of myself
tired, tired, tired.
am i complaining? oh wells, maybe i am
am i really needed?
why am i even trying to get appreciated?
why am i even trying to please everyone?
why am i even blaming myself?
having said that, am i selfish?
everything here is about me.
i am doing my best, maybe everyone else isn't
why do i even care about how they are doing?
as long as i am doing my best, i have no regrets.
for the glory?
no.
for the fact that i dont want to be disappointed?
no.
why am i doing, why am i doing everything?
who am i to do this?
what am i?
ohh wells, i think i'm just plain selfish.
i have given it my best, what else can i do?
i am not here to please you. i am not here to give myself more troubles
i am here to give my best. i am giving my best, thats what i am here for.
i am here to create another beautiful story, another great memory for myself.
i am sorry i cant please all of you
all i wanna say is. i am sorry that i am being selfish.
but i can assure you. i am doing my very best.
i dont hide anything, i dont put up a false front. what you see, is the real me.
maybe its cause of my tiredness, i am becoming more and more selfish, more and more insensitive, more and more impatient.
