Tired

hahaha still tired.
Reading my previous post, and having came back from SC Camp, reflected!
haha people try digesting this!
You'll be tired, before i'm tired when i'm tired.
I was tired, and i was only thinking of myself.
I did not think of the others who were counting on me to spur them on...
So yup! when you're tired, always think of the others, who are more tired than you, who have gone through so much for you! think about how others will need you to be there for them. learn to appreciate. you won't be tired.
People can make choices! when you're tired, you can choose to slide down that slippery path and just give up! or you can choose to stand up and cheer yourself on! and build your own character! and when you look back, you'll feel almighty and ask yourself, what else am i afraid of? i will survive!
Remember, you can make choices. make them wisely! and remember! you'll be tired, before i'm tired, when i'm tired. I'll always be here for you! cheering you on! :D
JIAYOU FOR ANCO!
hahahaha
WE CAN DO IT!
A1 FTW!
RVSJ JIAYOU!

Tired

one single word? many different meanings.
Tired
tired of pleasing everyone but myself
tired of thinking how everyone thinks of me
tired of putting all the blame on myself
tired of expecting so much of myself
tired, tired, tired.
am i complaining? oh wells, maybe i am
am i really needed?
why am i even trying to get appreciated?
why am i even trying to please everyone?
why am i even blaming myself?
having said that, am i selfish?
everything here is about me.
i am doing my best, maybe everyone else isn't
why do i even care about how they are doing?
as long as i am doing my best, i have no regrets.
for the glory?
no.
for the fact that i dont want to be disappointed?
no.

why am i doing, why am i doing everything?
who am i to do this?
what am i?

ohh wells, i think i'm just plain selfish.
i have given it my best, what else can i do?
i am not here to please you. i am not here to give myself more troubles
i am here to give my best. i am giving my best, thats what i am here for.
i am here to create another beautiful story, another great memory for myself.

i am sorry i cant please all of you
all i wanna say is. i am sorry that i am being selfish.
but i can assure you. i am doing my very best.

i dont hide anything, i dont put up a false front. what you see, is the real me.

maybe its cause of my tiredness, i am becoming more and more selfish, more and more insensitive, more and more impatient.

RGPS

Finally!
one day significant enough
Went back to raffles today! where i came from
my heart and soul, everything... 6 years of my childhood. Celebrated 6 years of children's day
i remembered how we celebrated national day! at our classrooms corridors and belting out every song with out heart! snatching the photographer to take pictures! How every national day or almost every event, someone's face will be painted
how we come down for recess together and have always sat at that table
the same rice stalls we queue up for
cheese sausages
shooting hoops on some recesses
playing freeze and melt
the various famous hopscotches!
the nice school hall with all the 5 values clearly printed. Creativity, Responsibility, Integrity, Graciousness, Learning.
We have a grad tee, with the whole level the same at the front, we got to use 1 art lesson to design the back
running across the courtyards in our pinafores in the rain, just for the fun of it.
the classroom cupboards that we never ever abuse
mrs huang's pancake with vitamin L! love and luck for our PSLE
how we used to try different mixed drinks sold by the drinks stall...
100plus and chocolate milk? fruit punch and 100plus...
hahaha
waking up every morning and having a spring in my step. sitting down at the parade square and waiting for everyone else to come.
loads and loads more fond memories!
:D
RGPS
<3

Chujing
=




MIA


i know you will miss me!
loadsalove
ZeeCee

NAT COMP randomness

6th in overall
3rd in footdrill
a treat from the officers
Sir elton's 101 expressions
Sir kangwee's 100% in everything
sir eric's camera with all the small moments
RESCUE!
the throwing of people
our awesome year 3 casualties
our awesome squadmates coming to watch us
our awesome trainers with their pretty cards
Our time spent in the holding room
The ongoing CPR
the GEL in our hair
the beret we didn't take out for the whole day
dipping our heads in the sink
Cindy's Laughter
Lihui's Coconut
Kailing's fringe
Shiyi's pretty drawings
Meilin being our jie jie
Yingcui going I INSIST!
GML
The guys with their TOC case
All the tidbits that we cannot finish
home nursing with us being so so so serious
the tears that we shared
Jerelyn's eyes going left to right and back
Kaiyun's -.-lll
Jacqueline's random outbursts of laughter
Qian Qian's catching of air molecules
All the lame jokes that the year 4s shared
JINXXX!
hahaha
HATE IS A STRONG WORD!

Well i have missed out a lot of things...
haha the list never ends!

NAT COMP 2010
Here's what we've got
i'm sure gonna miss it
its gonna replay in my mind over and over and over and over again
TAG what i have missed!
:D:D:D

To JZQKJ, SCKL!

If We hold on together...

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I 

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I
Jiayous for Nat comp! dedicated to JZQKJ... for all the memories that we shared... and for all that we have done, We have come so far. I know our dreams will never die! lets hold on to it together! :D

loads'alove 

chujing

hmms let's post
long time no post yeahs?
i havent done my shengci
haiz
exams are over but there's still sch
:(
me no likey school!
haha lets see...
i lived in the past for a while...
looking at all my old posts.
was so young and free and cheerful
put in so much hope for 1i
was saying how much i love 1i and put in a lot of effort
now?
haha the heck care attitude.
Mind my own business
i remembered how much i mind to complete my hw on time and everything
now?
wow i thrown that out of the window...
haha
i would be so stressed up in the past if i didn't finish my hw!
but now?
happy go lucky
wth right?
wells
thats what happens when you're not naive anymore.
and you've seen the ugly side of people?
ugly side of the world
hahaha
well reality
that sounds so harsh
there's still a bright side of the world though!
when you learn to love and know that you are loved.
well, yesterday's amazing race was fun!
but i hate the guys. they didn't take a photo with us
bingle shuai bu shuai???
SHUAI!!!








GE PI!!!!
adam gay bu gay???
hahahaha
so fun lah
we want a new pole! kang wee!
haha yeps!
so sad its over
back to school
and shengci
and more shengci
life sucks with shengci
hate it
ohh wells
gtg! shall post next time!

loadsa love
ChuJing(:

hey hey hey!
haha okay...
as everyone knows... my favourite pastime is sleeping... so yeps!
this blog shall sleep for now...
till one day when i'm more awake and there's something more significant to post!
hiatus!
bye!

hehey! GUESS WHAT?!
Comp is finally over!!!
THANK YOU TRAINERS FOR PUTTING IN ALL YOUR HARD WORK AND SWEAT!

Believe...in all that can be... a miracle starts

our awesome trainers... SHIYI CINDY KAILING AND LIHUI!!!!
the miracle to our lives... we've learnt a lot from all of you...
we won this comp because we want training to go on... and have time spent with all of you beloved trainers...
thank you trainers!
really love all of you to the max!
you all taught us to believe in ourselves...
and i think your lives have shortened because of all the mistakes we kept making...
thank you trainers!
for your time and your effort!
we all worked very hard...
esp all of you...
you all worked even harder!
thank you trainers!!!!!

Mock comp is overrr!!!!
WHOO!!!
i dun feel sad at all! although some parts quite wasted, but it was sort of reassuring as we know how things go now!
shall be super serious for every training session!
memorise all sns and taicis!
JZQKJ, SCKL! our hearts as one!